This is sort of odd to me, to just start something *snap* out of the blue. I think I need to though. There are a few things I’m not very good at in life, like trusting people, letting go of worries, and (like the title says) endings. It’s not that there’s something ending at the moment except for the fall term of college just ended for me (go MSU!), it’s just the term ending got me thinking: People are ever-changing creatures; in our looks, manner, style, everything. Why is it that when something big (or not so big) can turn us on our heads temporarily?
It may be bad to say but I think we’ve become creatures of habit. Not that we can’t roll with the punches if something doesn’t go our way, but I think that uproarious moments in life have an unsoothing effect of loss of control. I can’t speak for anyone else but myself, but since I had this lovely revelation (thank you finals), I’m going to try to be more relaxed about changes. I’m sure I’ll still worry that something can go wrong or I’ll do badly on a final, but I’d like to handle it more gracefully, not venting to my friends about things as much.
I said it in my ‘about me’ section; life is in the memories of the journey, not the destination. I don’t want to look back on my life and wonder why all I did was worry all the time. Teenagers are melodramatic, I get that, I’m perfectly alright with being melodramatic, but I promise from now on things aren’t going to effect my internal Richter scale so much.
That said, no more 9.0 earthquakes, only 4.0’s (Get it? Finals joke… It was bad I know).
And beginnings? There’s always something new around the corner, whether you see it or sense it coming or you simply don’t, and it’s a surprise. Everything has a beginning and an end, but I think it’s worth it to be as excited for both parts since something could stem from the ending of another thing… They always say that when a door closes, a window opens (or something like that).
PS. To make up for my bad joke, here is Lana Del Rey’s new music video/single “Born to Die,” off her debut album which I believe will be released in America on January 31st. Happy Listening!